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@GoyGirl I don't have traditional depression. I tie my moods to my friends, people I love and the way I'm treated. I can have an amazing day just because somebody I really like spent their time making sure I was happy and content and the next day I lose a best friend probably permanently, I'm shown to be easily replicable by another the night prior. I don't get sad easily but when I am sad it's full swing unfortunately. I have figured out how to control anger or spitefulness in the last 5-6 years but I can never curtail the control others over have over my mood and I think that's a major downfall of me and my personality ngl

@graf @GoyGirl Some people have that where one person fucks your complete day up

Some of us can fight with one person and turn around and be just fine with a different person like nothing happened

Some of us can't compartmentalize that, you are one of those maybe.

Ironically, it's the brain you got that makes you good at what you do technically, that also fucks you not being able to compartmentalize

Pattern recognizers are awful at compartmentalization, because its the lateral thinking here that fucks you but makes you good at tech, and also over-analyzing and recursive loops, which also make you good at tech but not at compartmentalizing

Something that helped me, after years of failure getting out of recursive loops and bad moods, was speaking it out loud. "I'm not doing this shit, why the fuck would I be doing this shit to myself", it took a time for it to work, not saying it works for everyone.

try it, keep doing it, in the end what does it cost you, but sincerely, give yourself shit, out loud for letting others control how you feel. (this excludes gf shit, that's another kettle of fish)

Sincerely mate, I hope you figure it out