Egregoros

Me after 4mg lorazepam in the middle of the afternoon

@graf sadly I can't take that stuff

@Ree Stuff in my life, this website, the swatting (specifically the day the cops raided my house and dragged me out of bed at gunpoint at like 6:30am) caused a lot of PTSD and anxiety. I often wake up in cold sweats from nightmares when I do dream it's usually something bad now so eh

@graf @Ree My friend I was thinking on this the other day. How I have so many horrific memories that should keep me from sleeping, yet I only rarely have nightmares or disturbed sleep. Somehow I've trained my mind, conscious and unconscious both to veer away from those things almost all of the time. Of course , there are probably negative side effects of this. Like I never confront some big issues and problems.

@pinemarten @Ree I used to never dream. Now I dream of my ex constantly and if it's not her it's a nightmare about something. I am so fucking sick of it dude