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whether it's stockholm syndrome, nostalgia, or some fucked up combination of both, i really do miss my alma mater sometimes.
i drove through a college campus the other day and i was hit with a profound sense of deja vu. all those brick buildings and walkways, The Street that delineates "campus" and "downtown", once again being in an environment where every single person walking around is roughly the same age as me. but it's just not the same as MY college town i spent 4 years making friends, enemies, and absolutely 0 useful connections in.
maybe it's the same feeling that keeps every graduate coming back for football games, sneaking into the student section and getting yelled at by the security guards for getting too rowdy. maybe it's not having the same level of responsibilities, or the same level of freedom. or maybe im overthinking it, and i miss the little home away from home that i managed to secure, just for a little while.
as An Adult, it's now up to me to make new friends, participate in and develop new hobbies, balance my budget, save for retirement, make sure i don't get fired from my job, work. the list goes on endlessly. but i think what's most important to me is not to lose my soul.
and that's why i really miss my college years. because as i transitioned from a child into something resembling an adult, i finally started being able to set aside all of the expectations placed upon me by my parents and family. i finally learned that i am a person, and more than the pet project my parents have been incubating for a couple decades.
and now comes the hard part! college was supposed to be the "discovering myself" period, but im only starting to learn those types of lessons now. when all the planned out options my life has been following have finally run out, when i finally have the freedom young me so desperately fought for, what do i do now?
i honestly don't know. and that's a little scary to me. but as long as i keep my signature naive outlook on the world and irrationally unshakable optimism, i know ill figure something out :)
i drove through a college campus the other day and i was hit with a profound sense of deja vu. all those brick buildings and walkways, The Street that delineates "campus" and "downtown", once again being in an environment where every single person walking around is roughly the same age as me. but it's just not the same as MY college town i spent 4 years making friends, enemies, and absolutely 0 useful connections in.
maybe it's the same feeling that keeps every graduate coming back for football games, sneaking into the student section and getting yelled at by the security guards for getting too rowdy. maybe it's not having the same level of responsibilities, or the same level of freedom. or maybe im overthinking it, and i miss the little home away from home that i managed to secure, just for a little while.
as An Adult, it's now up to me to make new friends, participate in and develop new hobbies, balance my budget, save for retirement, make sure i don't get fired from my job, work. the list goes on endlessly. but i think what's most important to me is not to lose my soul.
and that's why i really miss my college years. because as i transitioned from a child into something resembling an adult, i finally started being able to set aside all of the expectations placed upon me by my parents and family. i finally learned that i am a person, and more than the pet project my parents have been incubating for a couple decades.
and now comes the hard part! college was supposed to be the "discovering myself" period, but im only starting to learn those types of lessons now. when all the planned out options my life has been following have finally run out, when i finally have the freedom young me so desperately fought for, what do i do now?
i honestly don't know. and that's a little scary to me. but as long as i keep my signature naive outlook on the world and irrationally unshakable optimism, i know ill figure something out :)
@lebronjames75 @cell yeah its a little too late to be looking now................
@lebronjames75 @cell give me your sugar daddy's phone number NOW
@cell less than a month 👀
@lebronjames75 @cell wtf i thought you needed to be a hotel guest to swim there??? you can just swim???
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@snacks @lebronjames75 yeah, it's insane how much detail the brain can eek out. it's obviously not as detailed as a real photo would have been, but you can definitely see body contours and hairstyles. it's funny, the pattern on the guy's head in the first image almost make it look like he has a smile, but it's a little uncanny, like you're looking at a drawing mannequin that has old school textures mapped onto it
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@snacks @lebronjames75 this is crazy. i didn't know that magic eye images were a thing, i always assumed they were some crazy optical illusion you needed glasses to see. but i did eye focus exercises by imagining me staring at a mountain far away, and that immediately made the 3d image come out and it became insanely clear and sharp. it was a little uncanny, like i was adjusting the focus knob on a pair of binoculars. i kept adjusting the knob up and down until i eventually managed to tune it in, and then my brain did the rest of the work. it takes a lot of effort to maintain that focus though, if i move my head too much to see the 3d i break the illusion. very cool!!!
although i love to bitch and moan and complain about taxes and everything else in this fucking country, and this weekend has completely taken it out of me from dealing with this shit, i still love this country and i want to stay here. now if that's not stockholm syndrome, i don't know what is
don't forget to file your taxes, kids. and don't be a schmuck like me and make sure you're not a nonresident when you do file. so many deductions i can't take, so many things i can't write off, so many records and receipts and separate payment methods and bank accounts kept. and for what? for me to only be able to deduct a few hundreds of dollars worth of business meals? it's all so tiring
i wish i had the microkernel design autism, but instead i got the pornography addiction and freaking out when my taxes aren't lining up over 8 dollars and 17 cents autism
when the 23:29 lightning bolt of inspiration hits, you can either choose to let your muse speak through you and create generational art, or you can forever fade into obscurity
something i will probably never quite get is boomers losing digital object permanence the moment they switch to another tab/program. i see it at work a lot: people signing up to our newsletter at 10:01am and then replying "i accept" to our sign-up email at 10:02am, not realizing that the previous page said "click on the link", as does the email they're reading. we get a few of these a month. i feel sorry for people that get filtered by a sign-up email. what do you even do with that knowledge
@lebronjames75 you have a penchant for not liking anime but being extremely anime adjacent at all times, it's very funny. i think this is why you're accused of being a weeb so much, you're naturally tuned into the culture
@a1ba @SuperDicq @mer but you made it work when i couldn't have at the time, and that made it special to me :)
@SuperDicq @mer thinking about how i organized irl fedi meetups before i was 18 with like a dozen people in attendance. it was a miracle most people on here are super chill