Egregoros

in my dreams about God shes incarnated as a very normal but very spectacular woman who usually looks late 20s mid 30s but has been as young as 18 and as old as late 40s early 50s. she may be physically pretty or not and often takes a different form from scene to scene without me or her acknowledging any change (but she is always female looking). more than any other personality attributes she is distinguished by kindness, purity, and meekness. she excels in everything she attempts and may appear surprised by this and never brags. she is wise in a totally unassuming way, but she doesnt show it until its time for a lesson. the lessons are where she shows her otherwise totally hidden power. she manipulates my mind and senses to teach me beautiful things laden with symbolism, usually things about myself and our relationship or about yoga. I always forget most of what she says upon waking. she possesses both a human and a divine nature much like christ and she often is so absorbed in her human role that she "forgets" her superlative divinity, or is so absorbed in her own blissful God-nature that she has trouble perceiving the world in finite human ways when called to, especially with regard to perception of time. she is incredibly magnetic but totally humble. is there any wonder I'm infatuated with her? now while I have had some dreams that are quite prophetic or that contain genuine God-revealed lessons for my life I consider the purpose of these dreams not to be instructive or revelatory because I forget her lessons but to instill a desire to know and love God in me. when I wake up I always feel heartbroken even though I have experiences throughout the day that make me feel God is with me. but those experiences never move me as much as my dreams of her. sigh.