Unfortunately, I will outlive my mom who is the only person on this planet right now I think I would lose my mind if I lost. So when she goes, I will probably be offline for a long while. I know she is going before I am, my brother doesn't really care about me. He's not been doing well, and I think he just sees me as a wallet during a down time in his life. My sister loves me but she is just so busy, I'd be surprised if she had time to even organize a funeral.
I had a friend listed as an executor of my will because I know he will outlive me even if he is worse off than I am just because he is stronger mentally than I am (I quit smoking after 20 years with sheer willpower and he still cant quit btw) but I need to find somebody I can truly trust. I don't have a lot of that. I know one person, but she's older than I am, not Canadian and I don't even know if I could make her executor of a will because she's American. so like. I don't want to put all of this on yockey but he's my best friend, he's always been and no matter what I've put on him he's always dealt with it. But then I'm left thinking, the worst thing on the planet left to do for somebody, I left to the only guy who would do anything for me"
if I had a wife, a loving family this would all be inconsequential and I wouldn't think about it. but I don't want to burden my friends with things. I want to give them parts of my life whether it be financial or things I really enjoyed that I know they'd like or whatever. Not the burden of trying to deal with remaining family members fighting over who liked me more.
I hate wills and paperwork and death and taxes and women who aren't nice to me and